I know there is a lot going on in the world right now, and for some of you, it feels wrong to focus on anything other than the immediate needs of those struggling with some of the most evil and ugly forms of energy I can even fathom. I want to honor that. I understand why you feel that way — I’ve been there. I’ve been through challenging times in my life where I didn’t understand how the world could go on when my world felt completely shattered.
One thing I’ve learned on my healing journey is that you have to make room for the AND in life. There can be a lot of evil, AND there can be a lot of good.
I was reading a post from a really powerful healer in the spiritual community, Sah Simone, and he was asked the question: If you knew that no matter what you did, you could never fully eradicate evil in this world, would you keep working toward that goal?
He said his answer was yes. And I was thinking about this a lot last night, and I came to the conclusion that I would also keep working toward a world filled with love and peace — even if I knew the odds would never be in my favor. I would do it because I honestly believe that if a world with 100% peace and love is out of the question, my goal would be to achieve 99.99% peace and love.
And right now, this moment — I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again — it feels like a vacuum moment.
There’s so much fear, scarcity, and war, and we are hurting one another in the most vicious, torturous ways. It’s eroding faith in humanity.
We are losing our environment. Our lands are drying up, the trees are dying, the animals are dying, the water is so polluted, the coral reefs and the fish are suffering. The whales are dying. The fish that live deep in the ocean are washing up on beaches.
Yet there is so much beauty unfolding.
We just saw so many people unify together this weekend — for the most part, overwhelmingly peacefully — to advocate for a more loving, harmonious world.
There is an entire movement of parents working hard to heal themselves so that they do not pass on generational trauma to their children.
Men and women from all different backgrounds are working together to build homes for those who do not have them.
There are people walking the streets helping homeless animals get food, vaccines, and medicine.
There are people, like Ms. Rachel, who are using their large platforms and their own voices to speak up for those who are voiceless. And by the way, Ms. Rachel posts her videos for free on YouTube — intentionally — because she was raised by a single mom who used Sesame Street to keep her daughter entertained while she got things done.
There are graffiti artists turning abandoned neighborhoods into beautiful works of art.
People are planting trees, flowers, vegetables, raising chickens in their backyards to provide a sustainable future for our littles. To get back to our Earthly roots.
There are people supporting each other everywhere, and it’s a beautiful thing to see. There are children who are being loved, who are laughing and experiencing happiness. It’s this joy that is going to save the world.
Sometimes we need help accessing our joy. We need a sense of permission or validation to enable us to experience it. And this is what astrology has done for me — and for so many other people.
When I found myself estranged from my family of origin, just a few months after I got married — because I was no longer able to hide from the fact I was the black sheep scapegoat in a family of origin riddled with fleas and ticks from personality disorders, generational trauma, physical abuse, sexual abuse, financial abuse, enmeshment, parentification, and sibling bullying — you get it — I was completely lost. I didn’t know what was up, down, blue, true, or who I was.
So I turned to my birth chart. I wanted to see what was written in the stars for me. What did my soul come here to experience in this lifetime?
What I found was validation that I was born to be a cycle breaker. I have a heavy karmic debt I am repaying in this lifetime. I’m an Aquarius Rising, so I’m seemingly rebellious, but I have my Sun, Moon, Mercury, and dominant asteroid Pallas Athena in Taurus.
Because I’m an Aquarius Rising, my Taurus placements are in the fourth house of home, natally ruled by Cancer, adding a Cancerian flavor to my energy. In other words, I’m an empathetic nurturer at my core.
It’s who I am — I feel deeply — and with Chiron in Cancer alongside my Jupiter, my greatest wounding — abandonment by my mother and father, feeling unloved and unnurtured — is also my greatest superpower.
I am a healer. It’s in my energetic codes. Not just in astrology, but in human design as well. I’m a 5/1 Emotional Projector. I feel things incredibly deeply and I use the emotional lessons from the deep waters I’m not afraid to swim in to share a greater message — to help others heal. I have the capacity to swim deep with others and be a beacon of light — helping them reach shore safely during stormy seas.
While it feels somewhat awkward to be putting myself out there as a healer when the internet has pretty much made a mockery out of spirituality, narcissists, gaslighting, estrangement, and astrology in the last few years, I think back to what Sah Simone said, and I know deep in my heart this is what I’m supposed to be doing.
When the world gets darker, we need someone to hold the light — someone to remind you of how beautiful, important you are — and that you can do it. Just keep swimming.
So perhaps I need to take the advice of a Ted Talk speaker I heard a few years ago. Maybe I need to let my sparkles shine without worrying about whether they’re “cringe” or not. And in the off chance someone does make a comment, maybe it’s time I don’t dull my shine, but instead pass out sunglasses to those who would rather hide in the darkness.